Saturday, January 20, 2007 i want to have the confidence to do things that i had decided on. i dont want to do things that i dont like and dont enjoy but i still do it because of some other emotions. i feel damn lousy today, it was lousy right from the start invisible. i guess u all will do better without me? whether im there anot doesnt make any difference. i dont feel like a ______ to you all. im just small and incapable i just feel like quitting i dont want to be in it in the first place there's only one thing that's stopping me i just feel so lousy so not important