Wednesday, September 27, 2006
i hate this. i feel like a maid in here. and to think about it, maids are better at least they get paid and also more freedom. in this looks-to-be-very-happy family of mine is actually a disaster to be in. i have got no rights. i may be the youngest, but does that mean that i have to do all the chores for you guys while you enjoy? do i have to get orders from you to do and buy everything you want for you. and after doing all these things im never appreciated, you never say thank you and all i get from you is all scoldings. things like fuck you, idiot, so stupid, irritating, and useless are what i always get. i always keep quiet, i never argue back. i just go into my small little room and cry. even though you know that you had misunderstood me, you never say sorry. you just pretend that nothing had happened and continue ordering me and the cycle continues. you always say i dont treat this like my home my family. but have you ever thought that why im i acting like that? is because of you. you guys dont even treat me like a family, i dont see any good reason for me to stay at home and get ordered, scolded and humiliated by you.
i always hated this. from young till now, its always like that. i will never be like them.
i always feel that im fated to have a bad life. born in such a family, not good in my studies, i dont play rugby well, everything is on the down side. i never really get to enjoy and be really happy. i just want to be a happy girl.
liting; 2:22 PM
